Friday, September 19, 2014

Numb


What do you say when the words just aren't there?

How can you possibly sum up the life of a soul who changed yours forever?

How do you begin to fathom a life lost that you wrongly and naively believed would always be there?

The world lost a beautiful, amazing woman last night and I don't think it has fully sunk in yet. 

Over the next few hours, days and weeks, I know it will hit me, and I will inevitably crumble into a sobbing mess of a person. But right now, I just feel numb.

I lost my Grandma.

I am thankful the pain is gone.

I am thankful for the family and the legacy she left behind.

I am thankful for her eternal love and support.

Not many people truly understand me. Mind, body and soul. But my Grandma did.

She was a beacon of light and joy when things in life were bad, really bad.

She was my biggest cheerleader.

She was my best teacher.

Even as I type these words. They all seem wrong. There is no way to adequately convey the impact this woman had on my life.

So until this all sinks and until I find the words (if I ever do), I sit here. Numb.


8 comments:

  1. You are in my prayers dear Kaity. Wish I could give you a hug. I love you. You are right...there are no words.
    MS

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  2. So, so sorry, darling. Prayers and hugs.

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  3. I am so, so, so sorry girl. Prayers and good thoughts being sent your way <3

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  4. I'm praying for you and your family. It's so hard to say goodbye.

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  5. *hugs* I'm so sorry. My grandmother is in hospice now, and she's on rapid decline. My husband and I had to say good-bye to her a few weeks ago, on our trip to Denver. There really aren't words to describe what that feels like. Even knowing logically that she can't live forever, it still shocks me that my forever-young grandmother is about to leave us.

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  6. Thinking and praying for you at this time x

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