Has there ever been something you wanted so much or something that made you so happy that you didn't want to share it with the world?
I experience that a lot actually. Chuck and I weren't "Facebook official" for a good 3 months after we started dating. I didn't want to share the joy he had brought to my life for fear it would somehow come back to jinx me and I would lose it.
Tomorrow, something is going to happen. (Disclaimer: I do not have a bun in the oven). Something that I want with every fiber of my being. Hubs is the only one I've told about it because it's so near and dear to my heart that I don't want to tell anyone else. I don't want to share my anticipation, only to later have to share my rejection.
I believe that God knows my heart better than I know it myself. He knows how much I would love this. So last night Chuck and I prayed the prayer that never fails, "Thy will be done." If this something happens to turn out in my favor, believe me, I will be shouting on rooftops. But if it doesn't I'm going to keep it my little secret. Because, honestly, it would be devastating to lose it.
Keep me in your prayers please.