CROSBY | 9 Months

Happy 9-month birthday, Crosby Loren! Your official check-up isn't until Friday, but I'm impatient and couldn't wait to post this update because I'm just in disbelief that you're going to be ONE in a matter of months!


I talked about what I'm doing to supplement our family's income in a vlog a couple weeks ago. I've made my peace with the fact that I will likely be returning to work full-time in the near (or distant?) future though I'm not entirely sure when or what exactly it will look like for me. I love our life right now and I am constantly surprised by how much I genuinely enjoy the company of my little ones. They set my schedule and I work random hours here and there when I can. We have a super-sitter who comes to our house and watches the boys when I have to leave the house for work and it's a wonderful situation.

But, as we all know, all good things must come to an end. As much as I love being home with my boys, being poor is hard and stressful. I have a few close friends/family who have weddings on the horizon and I keep thinking- how am I going to afford their weddings?! Obviously, that's not the only factor in my decision, but I really am tired of missing out on opportunities, constantly being behind in bills, and just the general stress that being a one-income family carries with it.

Crosby's transition to solid foods has been great. We've taken the baby-led weaning approach (which deserves its own post!) and Crosby has been doing fantastic. His nursing schedule has remained the same, but he's eating more and more regular meals with us. He eats breakfast and lunch with Charlie and I, and then is usually in bed by the time Charlie eats his dinner, so he may or may not get an evening snack.

He's also been sleeping through the night! We have had some issues since transitioning Charlie from a crib to a bed. The boys share a room, so Charlie will sneak out of his bed and steal Crosby's binky which means that poor Cros can't self-soothe and get himself back to sleep when he wakes. Aside from that pesky little issue, he's slept until around 6-6:30am every night and I'm so excited that a normal sleep schedule might finally be in the cards for me!

I've plateaued in terms of my weight, which is fine with me. I'm at a weight I'm comfortable with, but I know I need to do more to get fit, and not just weigh less.

As for Crosby...

It feels horrible to say this, but this was the month when I finally had that overwhelming, all-consuming, head-over-heels in-love feeling with Crosby. That's not to say that I haven't loved him since the moment he was born. But I've felt like my whole focus in the last nine months has been keeping myself and my boys alive. I've been operating in survival mode and it's taken me longer to feel connected with Crosby. Up until this month, I just felt like I didn't quite know him yet. Then boom, this month happened and I feel like, "Oh, there you are!" I've been waiting for you! Guys. This kid. He is just sweetness. I can't even put into words what a sweet soul I've been blessed with. He loves everyone, is rarely without a gummy smile, and just wants to be cuddled all day, e'ry day.

Chuck and I talk about how as they get older the more we feel that Charlie is mini-me, independent, not affectionate, and a just a little bit mischievious. Crosby, on the other hand, is totally mini-Chuck. He is just so sweet, loves to eat, and just wants to love on anyone and everyone. Gah! I'm just so in love with these boys of mine.

I don't know if you can consider it "talking," but Crosby has started making the "muh muh" sound all the time. He's also realized that we react to it, so anytime he needs the slightest bit of attention we hear "muh, muh, muh, muh, muh." He also cut his bottom two teeth this month! He's been so sweet, I didn't even notice he was teething until pop!, there they were!

Crosby's nine-month weigh-in is on Friday, but I'm guessing he's around 18-19 lbs. We're in Size 3 diapers and 9-month clothing, but he'll be in his 12-month hand-me-downs any day now.

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Crosby Loren,

I am so gosh darn in love with you. I have loved getting to watch you and your big brother interact more and more and can't wait to see the relationship you forge over the years. I hope you always remain the sweet, good-natured boy that you are and know that Mommy will always love you like crazy.


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