I've been thinking a lot lately. About life. About God. About what's important to me.
And today I wanted to share some tidbits of what I've been thinking about.
"I used to think I had to be somebody important to accomplish things, but now I know Jesus uses ordinary people more."- Bob Goff
This is perhaps my biggest struggle as a Christian.
Understanding that success is not important to God.
Trying to fathom that God uses the weak and the ordinary among us to do the greatest of things.
Accepting that I don't need a fancy, schmancy job title to help people.
Knowing that the best way to love people is to be content and in love with myself and my life.
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I know I keep ever-so-cryptically alluding to life changes on this blog and this mostly stems from an ignorance of God's plan
for me for us. I don't know what God has in store for me, I don't know what His timing will look like. But I am trusting. And I am attempting to cling to the things I know to be true in the midst of uncertainty.
Everyone has a dream of what their future will look like and I am no exception. I see a garden blooming with freshly grown veggies, I see pictures of family, friends and travels adorning the walls, I see a house bursting at the seems with babies, and with love.
In this dream, we are not well off, our house is unimpressive and life is not easy peasy. But we are content, on fire for the Lord and our arms are open to everyone who needs a friend, a hug or a good meal.
This dream is what keeps me going. This dream is attainable, right here and right now. It is not an extraordinary dream, but Jesus does not need it to be. He will take my ordinary dream and create good and wonderful things out of it.
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This is what I've been meditating on lately. And this is all I can hope for in the days, weeks and months to come.
That my ordinary life will be a vessel for God's extraordinary love.